I’VE FEAR

I’ve fear. I’ve fear of my fear. This fear blocked every my action, every my think, every my project. Is a paralyzing fear. Is a fear that leave me without an exit way. Like a mouse in the labyrinth, labyrinth that have an exit way, but neither the mouse, neither me, we know how to find it. Is terrible. I feel me as a river freeze, a river that can’t move or gone in nowhere direction. This fear don’t leave me never, not even in the night, when i can refuge me in my dreams. Last night i wake up of shot, my legs didn’t move, was impossible walked. I had need of the wall for not fall. I didn’t know what do. I was alone, i couldn’t call anyone. Was impossible going to the phone and dialed someone for help. I’ve wait few second and i asked help at the unique that it could help me, the Shiatsu. I tried to do auto shiatsu and fortunately has functioned. At least, in this four years, somethings i have learned. But i this night how will do asleep. The fear is always here with me, it’s not gone away, It doesn’t want.